Rat Race Concluded...For Now...

Its been awhile since my previous entry. Its with much a sigh of relief that I write this entry.

I did not have the time and willpower to write more entries as I was studying for my exams, which were concluded a few weeks back. From then till now I had refrained from writing more entries partly because I did not want my friends who were still having exams to read it and feel envious, to a large extent I was lazy and wanted to enjoy myself after the exams.

I feel that I can now comfortable write this as my results for the semester were released earlier today. Suffice to say I can heave a sigh of relief as my grades were good. Though of course, they can always be better! ;-)

So what was I doing between the end of the exams and now? Nothing much really, bought Command and Conquer 3. Was a good game, very fun. I also took the time to TRY and exercise more to lose some of my excess baggage (which I am beginning to feel lately). So far I have been exercising almost everyday, alternating between going for runs/jogs outside and going to the gym and pumping iron.

I feel better, a bit fitter, and less lethargic. To be honest I kind of look forward to exercising daily, especially when you have nothing much to do at home except play games on m PC. It gives me a sense of purpose in a way.

That's the strange thing, now that the exams are over, you'd think you would be happy and feel liberated. Now I find myself having to cope with my being listless, lethargic and purposeless. In a twisted sense, you almost wish the semester was still ongoing. At least you have a sense of purpose when you're studying.

Whats that? Find a job? Yeah good idea. I've been thinking about that...though I'm not sure where to look and what I want to do. I sure as hell don't want to work at McDonald's! Truth is, I haven't really been looking for any job...just slacking around I guess. My lack of exposure to the job market is worrying...to myself. But its one of those things that you are worried about but don't have quite enough willpower or daring to address the problem. I mean let's face it...I might feel that I lack purpose, but the truth is I kinda like being lazy. After all, I doubt we'll ever get the chance to be this lazy every again after graduation and upon entry into the bigger, more frantic rat race that is society.

So at this point of time, a small leg of my rat race is concluded. But its only my first year in university. Even after I finish the university rat race, there is a much longer and harder race to run. Ah well...this little rat might as well rest up and get ready for the next leg of the rat race.

A parting note. We're running a rat race I know. I've mentioned that before. Something sort of hit me as I was typing this...the problem is that most of us keep looking for finish line in this race. The problem is...THERE IS NO FINISH LINE. Maybe there is...when we all get buried six feet under. But as far as we're living I doubt there is a finish line. So rather than look for a finish line, instead look to the race. Its not so much how you finish the race, its how you run during the race.

Note to self: Remember this line of reasoning. I'm sure several situations will be presented during the course of this rat race, where one has to choose between how one finishes the race, and how one runs the race. It might seem like the same, but I believe theres a subtle difference. In my opinion I believe the latter to be a more moral way of running the race.

We're all rats here, but even rats must retain their integrity and dignity. Especially since at the end of the race, you will be judged and held accountable for the way you ran it...or so they say.